perspective meme--

I saw this perspective meme-- at Heidi's blog and thought I'd give it a go. I had to write out the years to keep it all straight in my head.

2008 One week ago --
I was getting ready for Thanksgiving
Looking forward to my husband having a week off from work

2007 One year ago --
I was three months pregnant with Emma.

2006 Two years ago --
I was five months pregnant with Micah.
I had just found out that I was having a boy.
We had recently decided to move into our current house.

2005
2004

2003 Five years ago --
I was six months pregnant with Joel.

2002
2001
2000
1999

1998 Ten years ago --
I was engaged to my husband.

It pretty much hits all the highlights and glosses right over the years of infertility. Until I did this, I didn't realize I was already five years removed from the thick of it. I don't understand it all, to look at this I look like the most fertile person ever, baby after baby after baby.   And maybe I am now, I don't know, but those years of infertility and a miscarriage are seared on my consciousness. It changed how I conceptualized my family and the world around me. I'd like to think, and I guess I do believe that I am a better person having gone through it, but even believing that, I can't say that I would ever choose for myself or anyone else to have to go through years of infertility.